She’s the girl that believes that what comes around goes around. The one that hopes for a better day. The one that won’t give up on you. She’s the girl that’s unlike the rest. The one that spent her days smiling, and her nights crying. She’s the girl that would love to be loved. The one that looks so damn strong, but feels so weak. She’s the girl that picks herself up every time she falls.
Daily Relatable Love Quotes (via thelovewhisperer)

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#6 Ghosts of ourselves

We are all just ghosts of ourselves
Guided to better the vessel
The shell
Like a child becomes adult
when throwing away toys
Age on takes effect
When we create another ghost
They follow us
They haunt our minds
Versions of ourself
We wish we never did find
Past mistakes they carry with them
Embedded in our bodys
Like memory foam
Every picture stitched in skin
Words left in flesh
Go ahead dig in
My ghosts or no friends of mine
Id hide from them if i could
Tethered to the rope around my neck
The follow me like a good pet should
We all have some just lingering there
Behind our backs
Rotting our fresh air
Soon even this version will expire
My vessel will update
A ghost will be added
Singing with the chior

#5 Afliction

Tell me of your sweet addiction
How it holds you tight like a lover should
Wraps you up and makes life good
Tell me how it solves the problems
Makes you go completely numb

I thought that you were not this dumb

Sweetie let me be your new affliction
Dump the bottle down the drain
Hide the money
Stop the pain
Ill hold you tight like lovers do

Promise you tomorrow
Make everything new
Youll never feel alone again
Ill be a better friend then jim I swear
To my kiss jack could not compare
Jose wont even stand a chance
Not after youve got just one glance

Take my hand we will make it through
The way your sweet addiction faulters you
The bottle soon will empty out
When i just keep giving
Love never runs out

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#4 My BFF

I see you in the mirror lurking
Behind me where my shadows stands
I see the face you make
The smirking
Reaching out a boney hand

I know you hear what it is im thinking
A wish for strength to win the fight
I know youll offer my the knife
I try to force my hand not to take it

With heavy shallow breaths i takes
i see my reflection twice
In the mirror, in the blade
It was only me i never liked

Laughing hard convinced youll win
Assume i still call you my one true friend
The only friend who would have me killed
A true bff with hidden will

See you hide yourself under my bed
In the closet in my head
Though you come out when things get rough
I fight with you to show im tough

The tempation never faulters though
Something left from a hidden past
Though scars may heal
The voice doesnt dim
Living everyday reminding myself

Hes just my demon
Im stronger than him

#3 In helping

Humanity lost is nothing new
Battling loss within a crew
Darkness folds into her heart
Leaving her with all new scars
Light at the end still pouring through
Seems to take so long to walk to
How long can just one tunnel be
How many more turns til shes set free

See he was just a lonely soul
Trying to fill a gaping hole
His mind just wouldnt let peices fit
Pushing everyone away in just one slit
Not caring about the ones who love
That hole, its just a cover up

Shes said before we hurt ourselves
I live alone cause i put myself up on that shelf
No one seems to hear her though
Could carve words in skin
Still be left unknown
A lesson best learned then taught
Cant save the unwilling
Just sit back and watch

He covers up what it is he fears
Never finding love in someones tears
Playing big and bad and tough
Under the mask theres hidden fluff
A bottle can only hold so much
Instead of pouring a drink
He glues it shut

She wishes he would just let go
But she cant preech more than she knows
Space was all that she could give
though she loves him dearly
This was all she could do
In helping him

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#2 Dagon

He closes his eyes in aguish
The way he always does
This time they look more sunken
His thoughts a song unsung
Silenty he calls out for her
His friend his lover his foe
How many years has she been absent his side
Better yet
How many men hs she turned her back on him with
How strong does a love have to be
To bring a mighty demon to his knees
His eyes,
They find the moon
Stained red with the bloodshed
Of a million years
Reminding himself
Demons dont cry
They have no fears
They shed no tears
Shes with a human
Her vessel and home
Theres no way he could find her
Or reach her
Even so
They arent allowed to go back home
Lilith, he mutters cautiously
Without you it feels again
Ive lost my life
I need you here
I demand my wife
Ive lost the entertainment in chaos
Causing discord no longer a game
All I do is seek a vengence
Though I have no one to blame
I feel so shallow
Without your gold spun hair
Falling through my fingertips
Dagon feels broken
Without repair
A demon scorned to time
Though his heart is cold
And black
His molden eyes burn red
He longs for liliths comfort
With no rest
Until shes at his side again.

#1 Sewn Flesh

Alone the lurking shadow creeps
Along the fire synged land
Near the creak
Just round the bend
I saw it with mine own two eyes
With skin of night and
Hands of twine
It stared at me with eyes aglow
Burning with the coldness of winters snow
I tip toed towards it
Like I always do
Its bleeding wrists drug on the ground
Leaving trails of scarlet
So it may be found
Its belly fat with food it wont hold
Vomits spews from its mouth
Secrets untold
Hip bones
Collar bones
Tore through skin
A jaw so small
A mind so thin
It looked at me
The frown went on for miles and miles
To my own shock my heart stopped beating
I felt my strength slowly depleating
My own face looked back at me
A stranger with uncertainty
Scared was I of this tragedy
All my demons rolled into one
Depression alone
Anorexia at its peak
Bullimia purging
Anxiety surging
Self harm urging
The monster ran out of my sight
Straight back into my body
Looking through its evil eyes
I sowed seems in my flesh
Were it escaped from
And intern
Returned
Put on my ravish sunday best
Looked in the mirror confessed
I have a demon in me.

April Poetry Month

Its the time again…. the april poetry month challenge and im taking it on. Be warned, and enjoy.

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He knew why he wanted to kiss her. Because she was beautiful. And before that, because she was kind. And before that, because she was smart and funny. Because she was exactly the right kind of smart and funny. Because he could imagine taking a long trip with her without ever getting bored. Because whenever he saw something new and interesting, or new and ridiculous, he always wondered what she’d have to say about it—how many stars she’d give it and why.
Rainbow Rowell (via thelovewhisperer)

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Saved by a Stain-Glass Window 
He wears tattooed skin, like colored ink can sink deep enough into his body that it will fool his future girlfriend into thinking he’s anything but broken 
He shaves his head, like he thinks sin can be contained in his millions of hair strands. 
He holds an ocean in places where his eyes should be, his smile is like the tide. 
If I held him close enough, I could hear the storm swelling in his bones. 
He lives with his dog, because a wife was too demanding and he took an oath to be alone. 
And he never reads the Bible on cloudy nights, because he swears God can’t see him. 
So he always prays for rain, because hazy skies are just a reflection of his mistakes. 
He washes vodka down the drain, as if his regrets will somehow end up floating down the pipes with them.
That’s why he goes to church on Sundays, hoping God can’t see true colors through a stain-glass window. 
He wears tattooed skin, like the cross on his back could deny the fact that he was sinful. 
Written By sad4evs

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Saved by a Stain-Glass Window 

He wears tattooed skin, like colored ink can sink deep enough into his body that it will fool his future girlfriend into thinking he’s anything but broken 

He shaves his head, like he thinks sin can be contained in his millions of hair strands. 

He holds an ocean in places where his eyes should be, his smile is like the tide. 

If I held him close enough, I could hear the storm swelling in his bones. 

He lives with his dog, because a wife was too demanding and he took an oath to be alone. 

And he never reads the Bible on cloudy nights, because he swears God can’t see him. 


So he always prays for rain, because hazy skies are just a reflection of his mistakes. 

He washes vodka down the drain, as if his regrets will somehow end up floating down the pipes with them.

That’s why he goes to church on Sundays, hoping God can’t see true colors through a stain-glass window. 

He wears tattooed skin, like the cross on his back could deny the fact that he was sinful. 

Written By sad4evs

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Short but sweet.

Cause I can prove
I have nothing to hide
Look me in the eyes
Let me prove to you
With you
I’ve finally dropped every disguise
Your the only thing I want
The only thing I’m afraid to lose
So tell me if there’s anything
I have to do to prove
That I will never leave
That our love over powers me
I remember I used to be so scared
Now that I get to be with you
Its like a breath of pure
Fresh air.
As the leaves fall around us
Ill just hold you close
Ill prove I’m yours forever
Through out whatever endevour.

I have history for sale
A not so very good past
Id say fun
But it was fun while it happened
Atleast maybe some of it
The rest i wished would vanish
I lived a certain life
And id like to sell the memories
That duplex
One bedroom prison
Where my dad used to lived
Back when i still looked up to his sleeping shadow
History for sale
An evil once step mom
Who hated me since day one
And no matter how hard i tried
I still became her pawn against him
Thats what broke the bond beyween us
And ive never looked at him the same since then
All things id like to forget
That two year relationship with a phone
To hanging out with his brother
And not knowing the difference
And losing a friend
To a football field porta potty
Cause you said youd leave
Then you did anyways
History to take
Two years of sleepless nights
Month long fights
Loving something
That was ready to leave
Who couldnt help but cheat
And disgracing
Train tracks
Baseball fields and tvs
History to take
Binge drinking
Blade drawings over skin
Bloody fist prints in metal
Allowing myself to lose her
My sister
Things id like to take back redo rewrite or re script
To the guys i lied to lead on and made believe
To the person i was that summer i cant stand you
After all of this past
Someone still wants me
Its incredible to believe
Someone still loves me
And he just looks at me
So you have a past
Hes right
I cant change who i was
But i can be thankful that all that shit got me here.
My historys not for sale…
I have to keep that shit to be here.

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